Well it has been quite a year. In my last post I had just scheduled an appointment with my primary care physician. I was struggling to get things done and wondering what God had in store for me. Good news is that so much is changed and I’m the happiest I have been in a long time. Bad news is that I haven’t had a specialist look at my MRI results from last year. I knew I was a procrastinator, but this is pretty ridiculous. I was finally ready to make sure I could schedule an appointment with the specialist that my two older sisters have seen, but of course when I finally got through with the scheduler at the hospital, she told me that their doctor was leaving the hospital and would not be taking on new patients. Lesson learned. My two older sisters were not happy when I told them their doctor was leaving. So what’s next? Emily was able to get a new list of specialist for us to try. Divide and conquer I said. Hopefully we can find a specialist that is knowledgable and caring. It would be great to have someone who can help identify why our genes are so unique. Back to scheduling and scans.
In other news, I have climbed out of the valley I was in last year and have made it to the top of a beautiful hill in my life. I am praising God that I have grown so much over this last year. After a few bible studies and dating experiences, I have learned a lot about who I am and who I want to be. It has been crazy how just a handful of men have made an impact on me this year. Dating, personal training, reconciliation, friendship, and mentorship. I won’t go into detail, but God has used these men in my life to help me discover how much I am truly capable of and what I can offer the world. I’m hosting a bible study for singles, volunteering again at church, starting my new handbell choir, joined a gym, signed up for a 5k, joined a discipleship program, and have found my voice in prayer.
Prayer has been such an amazing discovery for me over the last few weeks. It’s still new but I can feel the changes it has made in my life. I started simple with just three things I am grateful for every morning. It allowed me to reflect on the previous day and who or what was making an impact in my daily life. Then I started reviewing some of the prayers I had saved in my bible app. I updated a few of them and surprisingly didn’t need to delete any. Just this last week I began listing all the people in my life that I see on a regular basis. Some of them I know what to pray for, but some of them I don’t. God knows what is the most important thing for them right now, so I leave it in His very capable hands to know what I’m asking for. Prayer has become such a huge impact on my day to day emotions and it has allowed me to reflect on how blessed I am and how many people out there that are hurting who I just wasn’t considering before.
So my prayer today is first over my sisters. They are three very strong women that are going through some pretty terrible things. I pray that God will heal them physically, mentally, and emotionally. Then I pray over the person reading this. I thank God for your heart to want to come alongside us in this journey. I pray that He blesses you in your life. I pray for all those that are fighting pheo/para and their friends and families. So many others that are struggling with health issues, financial concerns, identifying their purpose, and wondering who God is. He loves you and although things may seem difficult and scary right now. He has promised those that believe in Him, that He will always provide.
Ephesians 6:18 – Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.
I speak the name of Jesus over you
In your hurting, in your sorrow
I will ask my God to move
I speak the name ’cause it’s all that I can do
In desperation, I’ll seek Heaven
And pray this for you
I pray for your healing
That circumstances would change
I pray that the fear inside would flee in Jesus name
I pray that a breakthrough would happen today
I pray miracles over your life in Jesus name, in Jesus name
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I speak the name of all authority
Declaring blessings, every promise
He is faithful to keep
I speak the name no grave could ever hold
He is greater, He is stronger
He’s the God of possible
I pray for your healing
That circumstances would change
I pray that the fear inside would flee in Jesus name
I pray that a breakthrough would happen today
I pray miracles over your life in Jesus name
In Jesus name
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Come believe it
Come receive it
Oh, the power of His Spirit is now forever yours
Come believe it
Come receive it
In the mighty name of Jesus, all things are possible
I pray for your healing
That circumstances will change
I pray that the fear inside will flee in Jesus name
I pray that a breakthrough
Would happen today
I pray miracles over your life in Jesus name
I pray for revival
For restoration of faith
I pray that the dead will come alive in Jesus name
In Jesus name