What’s First?

“Before I speak a word, let me hear Your voice. And in the midst of pain, let me feel Your joy. Oh, I wanna know You. I wanna find You in every season, in every moment. Before I speak a word, I will bring my heart and seek You first.”

What’s first?

Symptoms?

Testing?

Scans?

Just a few weeks ago, I didn’t know if I would have anything to add to this blog or even if I should be a part of it. But then the results came in.

I tested postive on a genetic test for SDHD, Paraganglioma-Pheochromocytoma syndrome. I was actually surprised. I haven’t had a single symptom or scan that hinted to a chance that I would carry the same genetic disorder as my sisters.

The good news, however, is that my perspective didn’t change at all. How is that possible? I could have tumors. I could have cancer. I could die from things growing inside my body that I can’t see. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me at this point.

But I do know one thing. Through it all, I will seek God first. Matthew 6:33 says “Seek first the Kingdom of God and His rightousness and all these things will be added to you.” What things? Let’s back up a little bit.

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air; they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the liles of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.” Matthew 6:25-32

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” Matthew 6:34

So I will seek God first. I will not be anxious because I know with out a doubt that He will take care of me.